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[08 Jul 2008|09:50am]
I should be studying, instead I'm trolling the internets. Very sad. I'll do anything but study.

Le siiiiigh.

I can't wait til next week is over. No more clinic!!!!!!!!oneone

Anyone know anyone under 12 who wants to come in for me on Wednesday? :P

Need to make some calls later.
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[07 Jul 2008|04:13pm]
It's very disturbing to look back at my old posts. -cringe-

Meh. I spent today reading, and doing nothing. Very lovely. This weekend was fun, Colin and Angie's friends invited us up to Timbucktu, I mean.... State College.

Sigh. I can't wait til I get a break from school.

Need socialness too.
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[25 Jan 2008|07:14am]
Don't I feel special! I've actually been hanging around with people from my class during our breaks lately. It's a plus and improvement. The only bad thing... is they're all a lot older than me, now true EVERYONE is older than me. But these are mid to late twenties even into the 30's >_>

Rawr. But they're nice and I seem to get along with them better than the you know... 20 year olds, who was like RAR LET'S DRINK AND GO SHOPPING, never the less drive while doing it.
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[21 Jan 2008|01:56pm]

Weird dreams, tired from school, and it hasn't even started.


I want a new laptop so bad... -sniff- Buy for my birthday please? :D

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[15 Jan 2008|01:54pm]
NOMNOMNOMNOM -eats brains-

AND HELLO THERE! So, um, nothing really new. School is about to start up again tomorrow -le sigh- And I've also decided I will continue to be a huge nerd and I will go to a convention again :D

Hopefully I'll be able to go to Otakon and Zenkaikon :P -loser- Chris is a loser butt though, cause he's like, "We can go for two days..." BUT I WANNA GO THREE ):< Always trying to skimp.

Anyways, work has been okay, I feel bad I'm like making my manager bend over backwards because of my weird school schedule ;;



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[28 Nov 2007|05:00pm]
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Bored so I ninja'd from Shawnie. [08 Nov 2007|07:07am]
He said to type "your name" needs into google e.e;; Let's see the results!

Camille needs bodyguards because too many people hate her (;-;... hates me?)
Camille needs men. (is that so...?)
Camille needs a duck to keep her company (What company and why a duck?)
Camille needs to write a description of herself, and answer the following
Camille does need some training on how to walk on a leash
(-is a dog now- ;-;)
Camille needs a belly rub! (NOOOO T.T)


I should get ready for clinic~

So tired!
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[06 Nov 2007|07:27am]

Halloweenie peectures. I didn't have a costume so I wore kitty ears.

Woo I got a new camera!!! That I seem to play with in the car >> <<;;;
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[05 Nov 2007|08:46am]
School, work, .hack, fun bits :D

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Bored, so I ninja'd from Shawnie [17 Oct 2007|03:10pm]

1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet's name & current car)
Chelsea Neon

2.YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (fave ice cream flavor, favorite cookie)
Strawberry Chocolate Chip

3. YOUR “FLY Guy/Girl” NAME: (first initial of first name, first three letters of your last name)
C. Del

4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal)
Blue Chipmunk

5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Anne Upper Darby

6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first)

7. SUPERHERO NAME: (”The” + 2nd favorite color, favorite drink)
The Red Long Island Ice Tea

8. NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers)
John Joseph

9. STRIPPER NAME: ( the name of your favorite perfume/cologne/scent, favorite candy)
Apple Pear Reeces

10.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother’s & father’s middle names )
Anne ... ???? No se!

11. TV WEATHER ANCHOR NAME: (Your 5th grade teacher’s last name, a major city that starts with the same letter)
Bennett Brooklyn

12. SPY NAME: (your favorite season/holiday, flower)
Autumn Cherryblossom

13. CARTOON NAME: (favorite fruit, article of clothing you’re wearing right now + "ie" or "y")
Strawberry-ie Jeans

14. HIPPY NAME: (What you ate for breakfast, your favorite tree)
Soy Yogurt Red Maple

15. YOUR ROCKSTAR TOUR NAME: (”The” + Your fave hobby/craft, fav weather element + “Tour”)
The Video Game Snow Tour


P3 calls me!
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[17 Oct 2007|07:56am]
I am le tired.

BUT on the good side of life I'm trying really hard to start a social life!! O_O!! I invited one of my friends from school out for lunch and since we're both always realllyyy busy and she has her puppy to take care of it's kinda gone to a dinner double date deal with her husband and Chris. Sounds fun! I hope it works out and I can start being -chirp chirp- socially.

Right now I have to go back to outlining teefies...

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[06 Oct 2007|12:01pm]
Blech, I have to work today... Gotta leave in like 20m. D:

School is going pretty good, apparently I'm getting it more than I think I'm getting it.

We went to Sushi Land two days in a row! Woo!! Sushi Land... hehe.

There was this little asian girl (lolobviously) the first time that was our waitress and she saw my Tenorikuma on my purse and was like omg kuma! And then that went into a whole omg Herro Kritty! Thing. She was really nice. The next night, she wasn't our waitress but she still hauled her ass for us, she was cute. Her name was Sue :P And Jay our super Sushi chef.

Then we came home, tried to watch a movie and started doing shots o_o;;; First shots of whiskey, which didn't go down so well because it wasn't jack but it was still good. Then we switched to bacardi. Which was like nothing O:

So about 9 shots later (they weren't like super full shots :P) Fun ensued.

And here I am, tired.


I should go get ready, I need to go deposit my check.. I can't wait til direct deposit kicks in.
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[01 Oct 2007|08:26am]
Yesterday was my first day off of everything in a long time... And I wasted it by sitting there and playing Eternal Sonata until I had to cook and then I grilled up the idea to help Chris again, and he agreed. That was a shocker. But a relief.

Once all his bills get paid and I MAKE him save... Then we shouldn't have any problems anymore n.n! And that means... Next year we'll be able to go to Disney!!! -squeal!- Hehe. A romantic trip to the happiest place on earth by ourselves <3

I think Nan and Pop scratched the MB trip just because everything is so iffy right now and who wants to go in the middle of winter? To sit around and eat pancakes and have people you won't find anything in the price range you want.

As for me personally. When I graduate, I'm moving. But to where is still unsure. I have to see how much money we'll both be making.

I've only been having bad dreams lately.... And they all involve me in this house. Which disturbs me even more. I was telling it to Chris last night and he was like, "It seems like you're afraid of this house." Which may as well be true. I've thought crazy things about this house for years and it's not going to stop now.... And your worst fears manifest under stress :3

On the other hand Nan is having nice dreams in which I'm graduating and getting married and she's sending me to Japan for my gift. That would be fun.

But no I have dreams that I'm being stalked from my car by some ghost girl who magically can't get in if I lock the door but of course I'm moving 28304928309423x slower than normal and even locking the door is a problem. Then you wake up and think the ghostie girl is still hoovering by you and you try to cling to your boyfriend for dear life because when you wake up from a dream, you never quite can differentiate the border of dreams and reality, especially if they're nightmares.

And then last night where I'm trying to go to school via the highway for some reason, miss my exit, forget where I'm going, realize it, some catastrophic thing happens and for some reason I'm running 60mph instead of driving, and some little asian family is there with a little girl and someone is like THE END IS NEARRRR. Or whatever, so I'm trying to make my way back trying not to think that I'm going to die the next day or wtfever, and I stop at the dentist office to pick up my paycheck, I look like a hobo, then I try to go to the school and then later want to find my car but I can't so I go back home and the little girl is like OMG RUN!!! and I'm you know 3 feet away from my door, and I'm like ho-shit maybe I should hurry inside, so I get inside, lock the magical door that lets no baddies in apparently, and go to tell Nan, who is ironing clothes, that I can't get to my car because some weird shit happened.

I hate my dreams.

All I ask is for something nice, I haven't had a nice dream in so long. At least give me one where I'm not fighting for my life in one way or another T_T!!!

Anyways. House tomorrow! Work today D:
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<3 That's me. [29 Sep 2007|11:53am]
School..... School is school.

I should be reading the material more, but I seem to be hanging on.... For right now.

Going slightly insane, I've barely touched the computer because I'm either at school or work all the time.

I finally opened a checking account, which is awesome. Now I need to get direct deposit.

Trying to live life day by day :P Nan and Pop are making plans to go down to MB in.... January I believe, then we're allowed to go to Disney whenever we want but then... school and money.... Either way.

Dante is in training classes which seems to be going relatively well, because I had already started training him and even by that he has seemed to calmed down a bit. He's still my little baby though.

New House came on this week, awesome. Can't wait til Tuesday <3<3<3<3

I'm so infatuated that someone asked me for Hugh Laurie's name and I responded "Gregory" lawl<3

I'm trying to make friends at school, it seems to be going relatively well, I'm one of the youngest there though, not like it makes a difference. Had lunch with 4 girls on Thursday which was good.


I'm boring and have to get ready for work <3
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[02 Sep 2007|04:31pm]
Hallo, I'm alive. I swar.
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[27 Aug 2007|07:44am]

You had your "own problems" for a year. You pushed away both of your friends for problems in your life or wtf ever you want to call it.

Now you come back and say I can't change but Chris is A.O.K.!

Lol. I have my own problems right now ;O Sorry if they're not as monumental as yours, or that my hormones are so fucked up that I can't deal with it right now. I have problems that are only waiting to be discovered. If you want the old me, that person is so far gone it's not even funny. I have next to no friends, games are my only comfort, and all I ask for is a little kiss. Just a kiss to keep me going~

Now, I don't want to sound like I have a torch and hoe or something, but... Just pointing out... That you abandoned us with no reason, now... I want to try, but the timing was... horrible. Worse than horrible. Tres Mauvais! It's hard for me to just jump right back in to trying to be friends when I don't even know why you stopped in the first place!

I just want you to see the connection here.. I have problems, you have problems, he has problems. We all have problems! Now... I wasn't just going to pour out and tell you every little thing that was bothering me, because I didn't quite see you as a friend.. I wasn't sure what to see you as. Now. I could sit there and talk to you forever and be perfectly normal. Throw Chris into the mix and something clicks. I've told him this. I can talk to you alone. I can talk to him alone. Something about you two together fucks something up in me. I don't know what.

Now once again, I've said sorry. And if you don't accept that's fine. I'm just explaining, a little bit, what's behind my actions. There is no real reason for me to act like that other than I'm childish, selfish, and I have trouble controlling myself. But you should have known that from knowing me for so long. I've matured, but not by much. I've always been selfish. "I want to keep you for myself" And the consequences of things are known... but I do it anyways because I can't control myself enough to stop.

Oh well.
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[27 Aug 2007|07:34am]
That's up to you. I'm just saying that I'm not great at being thrown into situations like that blindly with my brain not functioning correctly. First off, I wasn't sure what to expect, and then it just got worse, not your fault though. I had a problem with Chris, and he didn't do anything, and I just got worse and worse. Now... I did try a little bit, but I kinda just gave up and wanted to curl up into a ball and rock in a corner. I kinda cut myself off from everyone -hmm- sounds familiar! Har har...

I resisted every attempt at humanity because I just wanted to be in my own little world, because I felt I had already lost. But there's really no point in sitting here and going on about it.

I'm just saying I would have done better if I had some interaction before hand. And not having a full week of butt sex. It was too much for me to handle, not even knowing how to deal with you much less deal with both of you together and him acting completely different from the norm.

When it's suppose to be a slightly romantic get away..... I don't expect someone else to be up my ass the whole time. And when you're not there, he sleeps or he's trying to chauffeur my grandparents around.... and I'm just kinda there. Now. I'm not saying that he should have spent every waking moment with me, which he did but not in the way I would have liked... But I just wanted you know... a few days.. or even a whole day... One full day. I didn't get any of those.

Sounds selfish. Maybe it is. I just wanted to be his girl for one day.
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[24 Aug 2007|08:18am]
I'm dum, but I can't help it.

I've been emotionally ruined for some reason and I haven't even known it. Though I must say it is bad when your best friend comes over and you get jealous of her boyfriend because you wish your boyfriend was more like that but then you have to realize that that's his first girlfriend and she means the world to him for the first time. Sigh!

What's worse is when you ruin your own vacation for a reason you can't even place your finger on but you think it's because your boyfriend acts different with other people around.... which is true. But also because of the fact that you're not good at interacting with more than one person at a time and on the other hand not being able to have a 2-person relationship in the same proximity. One on one with both is fine, put one and one together and I explode. Something clicks, I turn off, I get upset, I go nuts. Why? Don't ask me. Give me some medicine dammit! I wish...

Maybe this is another new side effect of meh pillz!!!! Before it was just random manic depression. Now at a different time of the month, it's insane jealously for no apparent reason because you for ten minutes can't be a kid again!!!!!!!

Now listen.... I'm 18.... And I'm losing how to act like a kid... or maybe it's that I don't want to act like a retard.... I don't know which it is. Give me some drinkies and I'll party all night!!!! Too bad heat + drinks don't work very well... You sober up hella fast. 6 Drinks at Medieval Times and I'm sober by the time we get home, ftw? Those guys were haaawtttt....

And if that wasn't the problem it was that I drank to slow and I was just plain passed out. -siiigh-

I suck.
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[16 Aug 2007|08:26am]
I'm actually kinda nervous. Though it's rather stupid to be...

Nothing can ruin my vacation!!!! Unless it gets ruined....

I have to go work tonight, nyeh...

Mostly finished packing... Sighh~~

I can't find my other flip flop... It's sad.
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[14 Aug 2007|11:35am]
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